Isn’t a blog supposed to be a place where one can share his or her thoughts and get things out in the open?
I sometimes find that hard.
In the “drafts” file of the blog, I have several posts about real-world stuff. I don’t know why, but I’ve never been able to hit the “publish” button. Maybe it’s because I don’t want to put everything out there or let down any guards. I’m not sure. Because, truthfully, I’m usually someone who isn’t afraid to let things known.
But with December quickly coming upon us, reality is setting in even more than it has been. At some point during the month, my unemployment insurance will come to an end.
That means no income.
Great month for that to happen, eh?
I’m searching for jobs outside my field and seeing if I can find anything to make ends meet. I keep trying to find some freelance writing jobs, but nothing seems to be coming to fruition there. I keep sending out resumes and letters in hopes of finding something, but I’m not getting lucky.
It’s quite frustrating.
I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t worried. I’ve actually never been so worried in my life.
For those who have never been in this situation of long-term unemployment, it’s tough. Even some who have dealt with it but have a spouse with a second income might not realize the full depth of this. Yes, that’s tough. But at least there’s that income.
During this long-term part of my life, I’ve still been vigilant about paying bills. I’m not sure what happens there if the income totally ceases.
Now, to be fair, I have a roof over my head and that shouldn’t change. I have access to a phone, computer and things like that. So, thankfully, I won’t be looking for large cardboard boxes to live in or a spot under a bridge somewhere. But it still doesn’t take away from a lot of other things.
I have looked into changing professions and going back to school. Several people closer to me know about one thing I have been looking into. The issue there? It’s an eight-month program and I still need to figure a way to have some income coming in. I can’t make that money appear. I can’t go without any sort of income and do that program for the next eight months. Many of the jobs I’ve applied for are outside my field.
So how to go about this?
I keep tapping away at the keyboard, writing cover letters, tweaking resumes and sending them out. When I need a break from staring at these jobs (and hoping I’m not applying for one I did last week or the week before), I turn to the blog and write a little about life — in hopes of at least getting my mind free.
I do tend to try and look at the positive side of things. I have friends and family who care. I know when this whole situation ends, I’ll be better off — in regard to life experience and knowing what it’s like to go through this situation.
Remaining hopeful is about the only thing I can do anymore.
This post is more about me trying to get a few things off my chest. OK, rant over. Blog will get back to normal tomorrow. Now back to some job apps. Maybe somebody will hire me, finally!
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