We’ve tackled this theme before in previous challenges, but I thought it would be good to do it again. Most of us change from year to year, so maybe it’s good to have this theme every couple of years.
From personal experience, I know there’s a lot of change in people.
Honestly, as I truly reach middle age (mid-40s now!), I have found I don’t know fully who I am. I battle this every day as I still try and find my way in this world. Despite a good job, a great family, and excellent friends, sometimes I can feel like the world is beyond its actual vast size.
Alas, every step one takes in this world shapes you to be the person you are.
I am not big on New Year’s resolutions, as I feel people make these to try and improve and then fall off the wagon. I am more into life goals — and it just so happened that some of them for me start in the New Year — but many others started before.
If you read my blog — when I’m doing things a bit more regular — you know there are probably quite a few adjectives that can explain who I am. One is a diabetic, which took me several years to accept when I was first told. If I had accepted the “pre-diabetic” title early, maybe I could have avoided it becoming worse.
Then again, maybe not.
Last year, I thought I was really going the way I needed. I was working it well and then I had back issues and let myself go all to hell again. I got a wakeup call at my last doctor’s visit, so I knew I had to change — again.
But it wasn’t just the diabetes battle — I wanted to find myself as a person. I wanted to discover who I was and where I wanted to go. Life is short and it can end in an instant — so I wanted to start experiencing things and try to figure out my place in this world.
I’m not there yet, but I’ve started the process.
With that in mind, I’ve started working on a goal challenge and some of my goals are health related. From losing weight to getting my blood sugars in order a bit more, I’m hoping to make myself a better person. Better health gives one a better outlook.
But I’m trying to become better overall. That even includes things I tried not to ever do — like be in photos or (gasp) take a selfie sometimes (though still very rare). I’m walking a ton and I am getting ready to hopefully run a 5K in March.
What I’m trying to say, I guess, is who I am is somebody who is always evolving and hopefully being the best person I can be.
Who are you?
This post is part of the 2019 20 Days of Chill Writing Challenge hosted by A ‘lil HooHaa. Please check out the link if you’d like to see others or join in. You don’t have to do every theme if you don’t want! And for those participating, take a moment and check out the other participants!