My calendar still shows March.
Despite it now being April (it doesn’t feel like it, for the record), I haven’t switched my calendar.
I know that doesn’t seem like anything major. People do it all the time, right? My issue is it’s another month without a job. Recently, I’ve been sending more and more applications out to part-time jobs. Anything. I just don’t want to have to keep yanking money from a retirement account to live. But, I do what I have to do.
The reality is my skill set fits a certain thing. Though I can learn fast, I wonder if, sometimes, my applications show up on a desk and they don’t feel I can match up. Or if I have too many experiences or education.
Yeah — you know — the whole “overqualified.”
As I keep trying to stay positive, the reality of this continues to set in. For the first bulk of this, I had unemployment. Now, I don’t. So it’s a little more stressful.
I find myself, at times, tapping away at a cover letter or application and just stop. I’ll stare for a while and walk away. It’s not that I can’t finish it’s that my mind wanders. I wonder what I did to end up in this spot. I wonder what I have to do to get out of it. I’d love to go back to college, but is it worth getting deeper into student debt?
To start this search all over and go through the same thing?
People have looked at my resume and cover letters and tell me they are fine. Apparently not so much. If they were, how am I still out of work?
I don’t know anymore. I really don’t. Some days are better than others. But this is getting old. And as the spring slowly comes, with better weather and the ability to do more things, it’s going to get harder?
Because it does still cost money to do things, even if it’s just gas. Or grabbing a sandwich when out for a day.
I know this post may seem like it’s out of left field or blabbing, but more than anything, it was just a way for me to throw some thoughts down on the screen. Maybe this will help me as I continue to push forward and attempt to stay positive. At this moment, it’s all I can do.
Well, and change the calendar.
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