Sometimes I wonder what the hell I’m doing with myself. Here I am, working for a small newspaper with ugly hours and low pay. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t mind it — for now. It has it’s ups and downs and all of that, but for the most part, I dig it right now.
However, I know I won’t be doing this the rest of my life. I can’t do this the rest of my life.
The bottom line is having some sort of a life plan is a good thing. It’s one I need to start working on because I’ve been in an endless routine that sometimes sucks the life right out of me. Don’t get me wrong, the things I’ve been doing to work on making life better is going well. But if I don’t figure out which direction I want to go in — and soon — I’m going to be sitting here in 10 years posting about how I just let it all stay the same.
Looking at the future can be scary. It’s something where you really have to know what direction you want to go in. I look at it this way — working 4 to 12 at this point in my life is something I can deal with. But it won’t be in a couple of years. There’s no life with this job and I don’t care what anyone says.
Any sportswriter who can look you in the eye and say they have a good, social and fulfilling life is full of shit. They might be true in the regard to a satisfying career, but everything else isn’t perfect, I assure you of that.
This is how I do it. I work 4-12. I come home and am up until 3 or so. (Think of it this way — people say ‘why don’t you go home and go right to bed?’ That’s like someone who works 9-5 coming home and going right to bed. You need to unwind and all).
I sleep until anywhere from 10-1230 the next day. I get up, eat, screw around online or run some errands, shower and head to work by 3:30.
Where’s the life? The worst part is I rarely get back-to-back days off. So you can’t even be in a normal routine for a couple of days. It’s basically a day where you recharge, then head back to work.
If I’m doing this two years from now, I’m going to be hating life. I like the people I work with, I like what I do, I like my beats — but the hours and grind wears. Which is how I know I won’t be doing it forever.
So, the question then comes up — how do you plan for a future? What do you do? How in depth do you get planning your next career move and how far ahead do you look into it?
I seriously have no clue which direction my life will take in the next two years. I’m not sure what I want to do with my next career step. But I’ve figured if I’m actually going to do something in a year or two, I need to start planning and thinking about where I want to be and what I want to do.
If not, in two years I’ll be back to posting and saying I need to make a change, but I’ll have no plan.
Isn’t the future supposed to look bright?
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