So it’s now 2006.
I am willing to bet many of you made your resolutions and don’t plan on going through with them, eh? Yeah, I know all about that. I used to be the same way. Now I just don’t believe in making resolutions.
However, this year I am going to try and make myself a bit of a better person, both in mind and body. It’s not a resolution per say, rather something I feel I finally need to do and with a little disturbing news from the Doc, I figured it was a good time to get things in order. No need to check out of Hotel Earth early, so I got a good wakeup call before anything got real bad. I’ll get into that as well as some other things with this entry.
Several weeks ago I went to the doctor for a checkup. Normal stuff, but he had taken some blood recently to check some things. Anyway, turns out my blood sugar is a bit high for his liking, so blood test two. Well, that comes back a little higher and he’s not liking it at all. So he says he believes I’m a borderline diabetic and I need to start watching things.
For those who don’t know me as well as others, I’m not a tiny guy. I’m not huge by any means, but I’m in that middle area of where I could use to shed a bunch of pounds to get me back down to a good fighting weight. But, I also wear it well, so I can hide it and all that. Either way, I know to get healthy, I need to start watching shit.
That all also adds to the fact that I already have high blood pressure and am on some meds for that. So, put it all together and I was being told this good news from the Doc. I wasn’t shocked, upset or whatever — which I think threw him off guard. Either way, I was like, “OK, so what do I have to do?”
Well, I’m on a pretty strict diet now. 1,400 calories (ugh) and not a lot of goodies. I’ve been starting to ride the exercise bike I bought not too long ago and seeing what I can do to get this shit flowing. And, more importantly, make sure none of these problems become bigger problems — ie: full-blown diabetes.
I have to visit a dietitian on Wednesday and I’m hoping she makes a little more sense of this than the Doc did. He didn’t tell me a lot, rather gave me some things to read. I’ve stayed on course pretty well, I’ve dropped some weight to get rolling and my blood sugar has been extremely good. So I know things are going well.
That said, I saw this light (not for real, but you know what I mean) when all this was coming about. It made me look at who I was, where I was and hopefully trying to figure out what the hell I want to do with myself. My situation is far from perfect right now, but I know I can do stuff now to make things better. So, I’ve made a pact with myself to try and better my own existence, which will hopefully lead me to be happier and more confident in certain aspects of my life.
There are several things I’ve wanted to do for a couple of years now. That being meditation and yoga. The two, I feel, would help me a lot in regard to stress, everyday life and hopefully just to make me relax and become a better person. So, I’ll be ordering (likely tonight) books on Amazon about it. Of course, both will be Dummies books, as those really spell things out to you and how to do things.
I’m also not really a person of God, I don’t preach it, I don’t go to church and I don’t like it when others talk on and on about God and religion. That said, I do wonder what’s out there, have some of my own beliefs and am going to try and expand on a spirituality part of myself. So, to stay along the same lines, I’ll be buying “Spirituality for Dummies” as well, just to see what that has to offer and maybe give me some insight onto other beliefs and what’s out there.
Finally, in a different direction, I’m going to test out some aromatherapy. I like good spelling things, so that’s right up the line. But I know some people who use it and say it works wonders. So I’m going to try.
The goal of all this is to make me be a better person in my own eyes. I don’t want to get mad at stupid things anymore, I want stress to not be so crazy and I want to be able to relax. It’s pretty shitty when I get irritated with people driving so much. It shouldn’t bother me, considering I leave myself plenty of time to get where I want to be. The bottom line is that life is indeed short and rushing to be somewhere just defeats the purpose of it.
I can assure you that none of this means I’m turning into a hippy. That will never, ever happen. I do know some hippie-type females I think are pretty sweet, but that’s as far I’d go.
I will likely utilize this blog a bit more to update what is going on with me. I realize not a lot of people actually come and read the blogs, but it’s a good avenue for me to go just to throw some things down as they go through my mind. And truthfully, it’s a bit therapeutic to do so.