This road is going to be a long one, that’s for sure.
I knew my latest checkup wasn’t going to be fun. I was far from “good” over the holiday months and it was only in the past four weeks or so that I started eating better and getting out and walking more.
Shockingly, my weight remained stagnant. No so for my A1C count, which went up a full point. That isn’t so good. I had expected it to actually go up some, but I didn’t think it would shoot up like that.
But, I can’t dwell on that.
If I am not mistaken, I’ve mentioned here before that I not only see my primary, but I also see a diabetes educator. In the beginning, she was a solid help But the past several visits have been more of the same – lose weight, eat better etc. To be fair, I haven’t followed through on some things I’ve needed to do – such as getting her a log of some of my readings etc. Still, I felt like I was treading water.
When one hears the same thing over and over, though, it becomes a little too hard to continue to hear. Lose weight. Exercise more. Even just 10 pounds will make a huge difference.
I understand that.
The problem is, all I did was hear that. I didn’t have questions and I just went with the flow. I changed it this time around. I asked question. I may have even come off a little confrontational (which was not the intent), but in the end – it worked well. I asked question and got answers. I also received information and tips that I’ve needed.
Part of this is that I need to be more structured to an extent, but not so much on another side. I have to understand food more, plan things out, and watch what I eat. On the other side of things, I can’t continue to worry about numbers. By that I mean setting hard goals. Instead, I need to soften them up so I don’t get all panicked if I don’t reach the goal.
For example, though I know I’d love to lose a ton of weight this year, I haven’t set a total. Instead, I just want to be healthier at the end of the year than I am now. To get to that goal, though, I know I have to lose weight, watch what I eat, and take care of myself better. Sure, I have numbers in my head of where I’d love to be, but those are for my thought process and I won’t get upset if I don’t reach them.
Instead, knowing I am healthier than when I started will be good.
A few years ago, my numbers had been high. And I turned that around and brought it back down. The problem is that I got lazy thereafter. As the numbers went up, I started to set strict goals – and when I didn’t reach them, I got mad and regressed. When I regress, it goes downhill. So here I am back at it once again.
This is definitely a long road. This summer will be a test, too, when I am out going to baseball games. I need to try and keep eating healthy and doing what I can to be active.