So recently, I’ve been trying to figure a bunch of things out. I guess I should backtrack just a tad here in regard to things.
I visited the doctor a week or so ago. Got the normal shit, need to lose weight, stay on the blood pressure pills (even though my BP has been fine for like three checkups now), got the blood drawn for some normal tests etc.
But damn, some things are starting to fry me. Whether it’s something at work that bothers me, or things in my personal life, or just life throwing me a curve ball, I can get pretty wound up.
That I know adds to the stress level. So I’ve been finding ways to try and let off some steam. And I just can’t seem to stay focused on some things. It’s annoying me like nothing else. I have some things I want to write and can’t stay focused. I have some little projects, nothing. I want to try and figure some future planning and nothing.
I can’t find a way to blow steam and I can’t find a way to stay focused on projects.
What the hell?
I don’t know what’s going on, but I need to find a better way to get organized, start doing more things away from work and trying to get things on a better schedule.
Truth is with this job, scheduling sucks. Work from 4-12. Usually sleep until at least 11 a.m. So then you’re up and only have a couple hours to tool around and get things done. It’s so friggin annoying at times.
So I wonder if I should force myself to start going to bed earlier when I get home and attempting to get up earlier to have a different schedule. Maybe I’ll actually get some shit done a little more often. And that would be nice.
I’ve gotten a journal-writing program that I’m using here and there to vent when needed, or just write ideas that come to my melon. I throw some things here on occasion, and use the board as some fun.
Now if I could stay focused on some of these projects I want to do, I’d be fine. And maybe would start to loosen up.
Anyway, I was just ranting. I imagine I’ll figure something out.