Living with Diabetes: What has happened?
I’m coming clean.
For the past two months or so, I haven’t been too good about keeping up with my blood sugar levels and everything else.
Who am I kidding? It’s been more than two months.
Either way, it hasn’t been pleasant. I have to come clean with this, or else it will keep up. And it’s not like I’m publicly shaming myself here. It’s more that I am coming to terms with it in regard to knowing I have to do something.
I realize, too, that talk is cheap.
This post, honestly, is more about me getting my thoughts out there. It’s about trying to figure out what the hell I did wrong and what I have to do fix it and get back on the positive path I had been on about a year ago.
Without disclosing the actual numbers, I’ve recently checked them a little more regular again and they were a little, shall we say, high. And when I go to get my blood checked in a month, I know that will have an adverse effect on my A1C (long-term look at my blood).
The worse part about that is then going for my checkup AND the diabetes educator I visit with and having to try and talk through it. I never make excuses. The reality is, I’ve been lazy. That’s no lie. I’ve just been lazy – with my exercise as well as eating habits.
So what to do?
It has to start in the main spot – eating better. I’ve let my snacking and other aspects get out of hand. So I don’t eat smart and I’ve started picking again – so if I see something, I tend to eat.
That’s not good.
I also wonder if this infused water I’ve been drinking is a negative thing. Though I love the taste, are the sugars from the fruit hurting? It might be time to just get back to regular old water – which is never a bad thing.
I also wish I liked more healthy foods. I am not a veggie fan (and it’s not for a lack of trying recently). Many things are good for me, but I can’t stand the taste. I see so many things about cauliflower and broccoli and spinach … and I just can’t do it. I have recently started liking tomatoes. I can handle onions, to an extent. And I think I can deal with some things that have avocado in them.
But the other main good-for-you veggies? Not so much.
As I have said before – I don’t keep strict health goals. My goal is to be healthier at the end of the year than I was at the beginning. But you have to take steps to get there. And, again, I don’t go shouting things from the rooftop online because, in the end, the only person I have to be accountable to is myself.
Starting Monday (today when this publishes), I am going to start working on things. I’m going to be better at logging my blood sugar readings. I’m going to try and see what is working and what isn’t. I’m going to push to walk more and such. What I really need to do is log what I eat and see what it does to me.
Basically, I’m back to square one. The first part is to lower my daily blood sugar counts. The second goal is to lower my A1C. All this happens by eating healthier and losing some weight. That means it’s time to be smart.
I’ve always said this battle is a life thing, not a sprint. Unfortunately, sometimes, when you sprint and do so well, you forget about the endurance needed to keep it up. So I’m back on the starting line to see what I can do for this time around.
In less than a month, I see the doctor and the diabetes educator again. There’s a chance my A1C has gone up from last time … or maybe not. I am not sure. But hopefully, no matter what, I can show that over the next three or so weeks I’ve made a legit change in my life choices for the better.
That would be a positive step.
Everything works together in life. Your body, mind, endurance, health, sleep patterns and everything else – you have to be in sync. I have to do more of the things I know I have to do instead of being lazy.
It starts again today. Hopefully, this time, it won’t be a flash in the pan. My goal, too, is to do this once a month (I’ve said that before) on here, more as a diary of my progression. Hopefully at the end of the year, I can look back at these and see a steady improvement each month. Alas, only time will tell.